Reflection

Good Morning ( in my singing voice). For this is the day that the Lord has made and I will rejoice and be glad in it.

But, I do want to take a moment and reflect on my life if you don't mind. I am prolly gonna be just talkin all outta sorts and what not but please just hang in there. I promise there will be not point to my jibber jabber....

Lets look at my children's lives for a moment.

Ty and Syd go from house to house every other week... so one week with me and one week with the dad... sounds fair right?  Bro lives full time with us and has met with his bio mom on numerous occasions.. Sounds fair right? 

But, what do you do when the every other week kids cry when you have to take to back? What do you do when the bio mom drops off the face of the earth? 

You pray that God will carry you through.. You believe that He will wipe away your tears.....You have faith in your Christ Jesus......

What happens when that faith is being doubted? Struggling each day to make it...Wondering why God has allowed this...Wondering what I have done wrong to receive God's wrath....?

I will say that I am thankful that we are a family founded on the promises of God... Doubt I do..Struggle I do.. Cry daily I do.... Pray every waking moment I do......

All of my friend are pregnant or adopting children....I am so excited for them and I love being part of their lives in this wonderful journey....

But, You know how it goes.. I am getting the fever of another child... I know that Bro would love to have a baby something running around the house that doesn't have to go to it's dads every other week... And, my other two would like it to very much to stay the way it is.....

Ty and Syd tell Bro all the time how lucky he is because he gets to stay with our mom all the time... (tears fall every time I hear these words).....And, Bro doesn't know why he has not got to see his bio mom....how do I tell why? .......Our life is very messed up... But, God has brought us together to get through our struggles together... Rely in on  God is just what He ordered